cruel life

i'v seen only 20 years of this life,but it seems like that i have aged by a few more extra years.kids at this point of life like to party , chill out with friends , get drunk , have one night stands. But i aint any one of them. life was never about the number game, it wasnt like i never liked to get good marks but it was like the marks never favoured me. It was really disappointing to have tried so hard and yet not being able to get what u desire.